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Dear Princess Aishah,
Where do I begin? Firstly, you have just made my night. and I’m starting to feel a tad bit guilty. I’m sorry if I haven’t been spending time with you, I didn’t even ask you how 2011 ended for you because it’s your PMR year, it’s important and I’m terribly sorry :( but of course it isn’t just you, now that you’re the first to mention it, I realize I haven’t been talking to quite an amount of people. of course I remember everyone that walks in, sweetheart :) I guess sometimes it’s just my incompetent self and it’s disability of keeping myself grounded. Honestly, I wasn’t THAT busy, but I suppose I just didn’t wanted to socialize ;( but no matter what, I never forget you :) and your boundless hope and optimism you can easily obtain in Taylor Swift lyrics. I guess that’s what I love about you, I hope this year treated you kindly.
and you are very very wrong, love. I’m not cool OR popular. and I’m not saying this to come off as humble, I’m saying this because I really think so. I have people I look up to, wanting to do the things THEY do, I still feel like I’m not good enough, you know? maybe it’s just my insecurities building up. but as far as I’m concern, nobody has ever acknowledged the fact that I’m cool or popular except you because it isn’t true, and you’re probably just being awful polite :) so thank you but remember Aishah no matter how important of a person we become, we must never disregard others because other people are just as important as we are. and I’m never too cool for anyone because we are all an equal. Aishah, please promise me you will never let anyone intimidate you? because we’re all human. and it isn’t something common I ripped up from a site with quotes, I’m saying it because it’s true. so never let anyone make you feel that you aren’t worthy of anything.
I’m really honored to know you look up to me :’) I try to set a good example but I’m not perfect so I’m sorry if you feel like my decisions have ever let you down because I know how that feels, like when Naomi in 90210 gave up on Liam. I never wanted her to do that. but then again I’m no Naomi. I never fail to feel surprised whenever a younger individual lets me know she looks up to me, but it makes me feel very happy :) so thank you for that too. and I’m much in love with all these people who have ever said that to me, I’m sorry if it comes off as boastful. but that’s how I truly feel. I appreciate it so much, I don’t think anything could make you prouder than to have a girl tell you she wants to be just like you. I know older girls I look up to, and just like you, I let them know how much I look up to them, I wonder if it makes them feel the same way as I do whenever a girl tells me she looks up to me.
and thank you so much for reading my blog :’) it makes me happy too whenever someone reads my rants and actually enjoys it. Oh Aishah, I still have numbers of things that need to be done to be able to tell others I’ve done what I always wanted to do. and one of them, is to hang out with you :) maybe some days I should just drop by your place and we can catch up and you can tell me all about your days as an ex PMR candidate I’d be more than happy to listen.
they’re not exactly the nicest people by the way :) Superman now has a girlfriend, but you know what I love him so much as a person and the way he makes me infinitely happy and maybe he deserves to be happy too with someone he really loves. and I don’t say the same things when it’s other boys. some which I just want to kill for not having mutual feelings, but not him. never him. and I guess that’s what it feels like to really love someone with all your heart. and no matter what happens to him, I’ll always be here. I’ve never told him this but he doesn’t have to know. as for perfume boy, talk about a leap of faith, eh? but he’s busy trying to match-make me with his brother instead! :( oh no not happening and it’s hilarious how it leaded to all this because all I did was shamelessly claim how cute I think he is. funny experience it was, the only thing you got right was my friends :) I love my friends and I never fail to remind myself how lucky I am to have them because I feel lost without them. real friends are hard to find, but the later you find them, the better. at least you will manage to convince yourself in what a strong person you can be even if you’re alone. I’m sure you have lots of friends who love you :) you shall be thankful for that.
if you stepped into my shoes, you will realize I’m not as confident as I look. I have very low self-esteem. but at times I’m brave enough to claw my way through opportunities at the thought of it never coming back again and I wouldn’t want to miss it so I man up and do it anyway I suppose. Being brave is always a good thing :) I just don’t know if I really am brave. and don’t wish to be like me, you’re better than me. You’re a smart and beautiful girl and I’m certain anyone would want to be just like you ♥
Sincerely, me.
hey hana! (: it's almost new year's, so i feel like i should tell you this. it may just be my insecurity, but we don't talk much & more than often i keep thinking you're way too cool & popular to be talking to a kid like me. so, i sort of look up to you. and you seem to have very lovely friends, like superman, and your blog & your quirkiness entertains me. you've done things i've always wanted to do, like perfume boy. but you're cool & confident, & in ways, brave. i wish i could be like you. <3
